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[29 Jan 2007|03:41pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

i am so over highschool.

i cant even really explain how i felt today. i just wanted to shoot everybody in the face and i dont know why. highschool is so completely gay sometimes. the majority of the people at mine are a bunch of douchebags.

i think being with the beauty and the beast cast so much lately has made me appreciate REAL people. i dunno what im gonna do when the show is over. they're my life.

chamber concert tonight. GAY.

forget my past

[19 Jan 2007|03:50pm]
[ mood | tired ]

spartan high is so full of douchebags. its disgusting.

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[07 Jan 2007|08:24pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

it's been way too long since ive done this.

i dont think anything terribly exciting has happened. im still dating devin and im really happy. he's such a great guy. and we're best friends. and it's just a lot of fun.

school is gonna be interesting. ive got creative writing and i can already tell it's going to be my favorite class. i was afraid it was gonna be something where he gives us a subject to write on and lets us go but its completely up to us. and i like that. i love to write and dr. epps seems like an okay guy so far.

me & rachel are trying out for the concerto concert w/ a double piano concerto. it's mozart and it is SO fucking hard. ive been working on it for like 4 months. piano concertos usually dont make it. i really hope we do.

beauty & the beast is going really well. i love all the people in it. it's different from little women. the cast is bigger so it's a little less personal but i dont think im going to find a play that tops the feeling i got with little women. im having fun with this one and meeting new fun theatre people. its exciting.

ive done a lot of stupid things lately. i can see myself falling into another really bad situation and im too stressed out from all the other shit going on to figure it all out right now. my horiscope, which i only follow when i agree, says that i should just ride it out and see what happens. so im going to.

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[16 Dec 2006|03:25pm]
[ mood | okay ]

i am completely overwhelmed. completely.

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[18 Nov 2006|08:57pm]
[ mood | tired ]

thisss weekend. has been eventful. already.

friday was a gay day at school. it seemed SO long. 7th period was completely miserable. we had a substitute named mr. mcaninch. yeah, i dunno how to say it either.

after school i came home and slept? i think? i dont remember. then devin called and wanted me to come to his friends house to hear their band play. i got there and the drummer was sick so i played the drums for them. after i played a couple of times, they were like.. "ok we're gonna record." so we did! and it was so much fun. if you read this and you have a myspace, you can go here ->


and listen to the 2nd song on the little player thing. kaleb named it like.. "ruff version" or something b/c the quality is shit and you cant understand a damn thing that devin is saying... BUT you can hear the drums! and it's me! hahah yayyy!

so we had so much fun over there. i love his friends. i love him. we are still great. he makes me incredibly happy.

this morning i woke up and went to the bethlehem center w/ church. erin was there and she got dog shit on her sweatpants. it was prrrretty funny. after that i went to the church to help rake mulch? i dunno, aparently the playground didnt have enough mulch. so that's under control now. whew.

after that me & kelly went to salvation army and i got a sweater, a belt, and some earrings. then i took kelly home. then i came home and cleaned the upstairs for emily, elizabeth, and christina to come home for thanksgivingggg!! i CANNOT wait. my family at thanksgiving is the most fun ever.

now im at home and i just ate some zaxbys and im thinking about watching some girl interrupted tonight. it's been way too long.

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[06 Nov 2006|03:45pm]
[ mood | happy ]

...for a bunch of different reasons.

1)today was a fun day at school. no tests or anything else remotely important. just alot of substitutes and movies and i read my book (pretty little dirty, which is AMAZING) even if there was something else important going on. especially lunch. lunch was great fun.

2)we dont have school tomorrow and after basketball im gonna go to graces w/ everybody and then maybe max's? i dunno. that might be a bad decision on my part. he's in town though. and i love that kid. and i miss him bunches. i dunno. we'll see.

3)keighlee came up to me in the hall and told me how cute it was that me & devin were dating. she knows him from flynn shows that he's screamed for. p.s. one of those is coming up soon.. EXCITE.

4)devin. i mean really, its as simple as that. he makes me so happy. and i havent even seen him today. this weekend with him was so great. he makes me so much of a better me. if that makes sense. nope, it doesnt, but the people who read this know me well enough to know that it makes perfect sense in amandaspeak.

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[01 Nov 2006|08:33pm]
[ mood | happy ]

good news.

my boyfriend isnt going to die. his little heart is going to be fine. he's going to a specialist at duke that's going to make it all better.. or at least try really hard to make it better.

he makes me SO INCREDIBLY HAPPY. it is insane. likeee... so happy.


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[29 Oct 2006|11:02pm]
[ mood | loved ]

tonight = perfection.
i sware, every little bit i get of him only makes me want more.
he's completely amazing.
he really really is.
and i dont remember the last time i was this happy.
make this go on forever.

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[26 Oct 2006|09:51pm]
[ mood | calm ]

this is the second year in a row that daddy has made me participate in this COMPLETELY AWFUL concert thing he does that he likes to call the Central Music"AL" - b/c his name is al and all.

it's so gay. it usually lasts about an hour anda half and its him singing like three thousand songs and me singing one or two duets with him. it's the longest hour anda half of my life so im sure its only worse for people who come strictly to watch and not sing duets between every couple of songs.

well devin came. and i was amazed. and he makes me SO happy. =]


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[25 Oct 2006|03:39pm]
[ mood | happy ]

i am officially happier than ive been in a while.
please dont let this ever stop.


come on, take a step towards me
so you can figure me out
i've been hoping and praying for a single way
to show you what i'm all about
and i know, and i know this is the only way of pleasing the crowds
but when this is over and done with and we walk away
there should be no doubts

come on love run with me
get the hell out of this town
so we can get a better feel for each other
i'll take you, back to, when you
remembered how you used to
just live your life a little for me
take the time to let it go
step away and watch me grow


6 if you want my future forget my past

[22 Oct 2006|10:03pm]
[ mood | loved ]

i cant stop smiling. i really really cant.

1 if you want my future forget my past

[20 Oct 2006|11:47pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

i dont know how in the HELL looking at one persons myspace can make me so depressed. it completely amazes me how much change and what hell people can go through in such little time... someone i used to be incredibly close with, someone i used to want to compare myself to, someone whos faith has always blown my mind.. can just fall apart.

i am blown away.

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[17 Oct 2006|07:49pm]
[ mood | excited ]


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[12 Oct 2006|09:28pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

im pretty sure im supposed to be babysitting right now.

i was supposed to go to trinity right after voice and pick mcclain up from day care. wellll i got there and they said he hadn't come today. i went to his house, left a note, came home, called.. i dunno. im panicking b/c i dont want to have forgotten him or anything. he's so cute and i would feel really really bad. and i wouldnt get payed.

i need to get payed b/c i need to get my cell phone back.

ughhhh fuck this day.
but the song im listening to, it rocks pretty hard.

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[10 Oct 2006|07:42pm]
[ mood | tired ]

i got my hair chopped off again! yayyy!

i was on my way thinking that i wasnt gonna get alot cut.. just a bangs type thing. but then i sat down and changed my mind.

today was BORINGGGGG. tomorrow for 1st through 4th periods jrs are sitting through some seminar thing in 1st period. so im just gonna skip. everyone is.

theres so much on my mind. hunter. oh gah. let me just let everybody that reads this read the blog that he posted on his myspace.

Amanda is my favorite person. She is by far the sweetest girl I have been blessed enough to have met. She is smarter and far more talented than I could ever hope to become. I admire her soooo much. Did I mention pretty...pretty is an understatement. She is simply beautiful. I thank God everyday for bringing her into my life. I mean never did it cross my mind when I first saw her that I would have come to care for her as I do. I mean all I could do for the following days was talk about how pretty she was. I believe that I have found my paradise through her.

Amanda I hope you got to read this....

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[02 Oct 2006|03:43pm]
[ mood | busy ]

i REALLY hope everyone else thinks this is as funny as i did. it'll make me feel like alot less of a bitch.

today was camo day. there's this girl that goes to our school that only has one arm because when she was little it burned off in a house fire or something awful like that. i've known her all my life. she's a sophomore. me and jerr were walking down the hall together talking about how lame the whole camo day thing is and she walks by and jeremy goes...


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[30 Sep 2006|01:32pm]
[ mood | thankful ]


i was so afraid that it was going to be crappy because it wouldnt be the people that i was used to hearing but it was SO good. we all cried. we = me, erin, & jordan. daddy didnt. he said he enjoyed it but i know its not his kind of thing.

there are a couple of songs on the cd that i dont think are that awesome but LIVE, i loved EVERY SINGLE ONE. and the songs that weren't in the movie and are in the show are really good too. i cant even put it into words. like, wow. it was just sooooo... i dont even know. wow.

as much as i loved RENT before the show, i have a completely new appreciation for how awesome all of the music is and an even bigger place in my heart for the whole story.

it really was amazing and i loved that i got to share it with erin and jordan. that sounds lame but it makes it that much more moving when you can look over and see that two of your favorite people in the whole wide world are loving it just as much as you are.

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[28 Sep 2006|09:07pm]
[ mood | full ]

ok, i just ate a big mac and damn. those things are really big.

"See, now's the time of the meal when you start getting the McStomach ache. You start getting the McTummy. You get the McGurgles in there. You get the McBrick, then you get the McStomach ache. Right now I've got some McGas that's rockin'. My arms... I feel like I've got some McSweats goin'. My arms got the McTwitches going in here from all the sugar that's going in my body right now. I'm feeling a little McCrazy."

the guy that did the supersize me movie said that ^. we watched 1/2 of the movie during comprehensive health today to try to make us see how awful it was to eat mcdonalds and other fast food places, and what do i do? go and get a big mac. the same day that i watch the movie. awesome.

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[27 Sep 2006|04:23pm]
[ mood | thirsty ]

um, am i the last to know that there are such things as cruton chips? i mean i guess theyre not chips if theyre crutons. its like a bag with little cruton logs. flavored. and thats all. i come home today and we have not 1, not 2, but THREE bags of cruton logs. weird.

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[23 Sep 2006|03:36pm]
[ mood | sad ]

today has beennnn... not good.

i woke up to daddy telling me i needed to go to the library and write my paper for mr. white. that was probably good because now ive gotten that out of the way.

while i was at the library, jerr called me telling me that he wanted to get together to write our bill for youth in government. soo i walked outside, called the parentals, and they said no.

my cell phone bill was $150 over my limit. so yeah that was awesome. then i came home and anne told me the most expensive calls and who they were to/from - also really fun. and last but CERTAINLY not least, i got my phone taken away.

im really sad today. obviously for the reasons ive already named. but its so much more than that. stuff that daddy and anne dont think about. they just always think that im mad at them for the car and now the phone thing. and they're right, that does make me very mad but both of those things are results of something that i couldve prevented.

im stuck in another one of those situations where i have too much time to think and thinking about all thats been happening lately is just extremely depressing.

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